Playing Adele-Live at the Royal Albert Hall. It's almost dawn and just came from a long day of duty at a wedding exhibit that's not that well attended, thanks to the other mall who went on sale so the mob was theirs.
Just an hour ago, I started my "clean-your-room" project, though it's kinda late at night I felt the need to do so. It's really stressful to see my things unorganized, and I'll try my best to finish this up well at least portion by portion but I remember a superstition that it's bad luck to clean up at night, so I only finished 1% of my whole mission, in short , I got lazy!haha
Looking at the stuffs in my room made me realize that I should declutter and stop hoarding!LOL
Same with the non-material stuff in my life. Like recalling the day I failed the medical exam for my dream airline. Whenever I think about what happened a year ago, I cant stop and list all the "what could have been" things and eventually will just feel bad and wont get over it. And I consider it as hoarding. Keeping all the useless memories that will just crush my heart and pull down my self esteem. Maybe it's really time to declutter and move on. Reading blogs from experienced cabin crews opened my eyes to the pros and cons of my dream job. So yeah, maybe I just need to sort things out, make a concrete goal and focus on one thing. I always believed that everything happens for a reason, so rejection and failure doesn't mean that I'm not meant for this, it simply means that I just need to improve some areas like having a good health!! haha I wont give up on this game, I don't want to get old and get frustrated about the things that I wasn't able to do while still young.
Mission declutter number 2: Letting go of grudges. Just last Monday, an old acquaintance of mine got mad at me for posting something on facebook. Well I didnt actually post it I just shared a link that I saw from a news article that somehow disrespected my religious believes and I was surprised cause he called me on the phone and told me that I should be sensitive enough with the things that I post on FB. He was disrespectful, inconsiderate and he really doesn't know what he's talking about. I was not the only person in the whole country to share that article and I didn't even made any harsh comment whatsoever . I was humiliated. But nevertheless I deleted the post for the sake of closing the argument. He was the organizer of the event so maybe he was held liable for not controlling those unruly tourist, maybe they got scolded so his out pour of madness was thrown on me. Just hoping that soon he'll be able to figure things out and will sincerely give me an apology. But for now, I'll let go of my grudges and wont even think about this petty thing, just thought of sharing it cause I really got disappointed.
And lastly, ill make this statement (Stop looking for a partner. Focus on yourself and rebuilding your life. Eventually the right person will find you. ) my philosophy for now while in search for "the one". I must admit, I'm a bit scared to be committed right now so maybe decluttering my thoughts on love and self-esteem might open my mind and all the possibilities in meeting that person I have always dreamed of.
And I cant believe I finished the whole Adele concert just for this article.But I felt good and felt better.
Decluttering and fixing things leads me to a stress free life. =)
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